First time?

so i was finally convinced to come on here and blog even tho i swore i never would, it kinda looks fun. i dont really know where to start but i guess i could start with the fact that i just missed 11:11 again. it happens to me everyday i say ill wish at 11:11 and i always miss it. ohwell. I guess i could talk about how much i hate school and how much its ruining my future. i just got back from a trip to europe and i have 7 papers, 2 books and a drama script due tomorrow. I dont know how i will ever catch up but im sure i will manage. usually i actually care about school and my marks somewhat but since i have been home i have realized how much more there is to life then getting good grades going to a good school and then getting a job. now that i have crossed the ocean i feel almost fearless. i have the travel bug and i want to leave and go somewhere else asap. While in europe we went to Berlin, warzawa, Krakow and prague and i feel like being there i was able to be happy again, try new things, and most of all i think if anything i learnt allot about myself. the last year and half of my life hasnt been easy, easier then many people im sure but for me my parents divorce became my excuse for everything and my reason for not doing somthing. I let someone elses problems escape on to me and i missed out on a few months of my life. But im differant now, this trip changed me. While i was there i was happy there wasnt a time in that entire 10 days where i felt sad about my problems or disapointed in my life back home. I forgot about all the materialistic things and all the stress and i was so content. Of course i felt sad when i saw the concentration camps but i think thats what helped me realize all of this that there is so much more pain and heartache in the world and i am just one person so if i continue to only think about how much my dad pisses me off or how weird it is for my mom to have a boyfriend i am eliminating any opportunity i have to be me and live MY life. yes i know there will still be days when i feel like its the end of the world and its all mom and dads fault but i know somehow that feeling wont be coming around here any time soon,. im finally happy with my life. I have decided im not going to stress myself out with school and being the best in my drama class because its not worth it. I know where i am going in life and all i need is to just graduate. i think sometimes people focus so much on what other people want from them and dont focus on what they want from themselves because ultimatly isnt it your life?